What do I think about society?

I think society it's a caos. It's all for convenience... Let me explain: I think that everything it's like this because it's good for a lot of people.

Homosexuality can seem bad for some people (not for me, of course) because on TV we all see series where a couple is formed by a women and a man. Why not a man and a man? Or a women and a women? Or trasnexuals? We begin to change that on Tv, but exit programmes, some films and books, songs, and more, are heterosexual.

I hate when people use "homosexual" like a bad word. It isn't bad! Society is stupid. And all of us are a little bit too... Our culture corrupts us.

I think things like that sometimes. I can't stand bad conduct... Well, people won't change. Ojalá!

People

I sometimes think about how's people outside the center. I see how some people seem good friends, and next year they aren't at the same class and they don't talk anymore. I hate that. Why? It isn't beautiful to talk to classmates?

I remember my old friends, and I miss them. They're on different high schools, but we still talking. I hate to forget people just because they aren't closer to me. Thats disgusting! It makes me angry...

I like to speak to very different people, because it's lovely. We all have a unique thing that make us special. I remember moments, conversations... Only for a little thing. I can talk about music with a pop-girl, who is my opposite, and I'll enjoy the conversation. Why? Oh, why not? There's no excuse. I can't say "I don't like this person because he's/she's *X thing*. I didn't talk with he/her, but I know I can't stand him/her". Hardly ever I can say that...

I'm not perfect, of course, but I don't judge! People had to know how to live together... But they don't care about it.

Skull painting

I hate when people say "Art is stupid. Anyone can live of his art. If you want to be an artist, you'll be poor... You need money!". I know money it's important, but I prefer to be happy doing what do I want. It's my future! My family trust me and they always say that I will be good at painting, but, well, it's family hahaha. I sometimes paint (when I break with my time, because I'm a disaster, you know...) on weekends. Last week I get my charcoals and I started with a skull. I love skulls, they have a deep meaning, what do you think? I try to do some "painful" paintings, because I think it's easy to paint a tree. You can practice how to paint a landscape, but not emotions! I really prefer to show ideas, fears and some hard things. I loved when a friend told me "your drawings are so... well... I imagine a crazy man drawing that, not you", because I wanted to cause this idea. Here you have the skull painting. Hope you like it!

I love languages!

I know that I'm a good student who has good marks, and that's very good, but I sometimes wonder if it's good for my life. I mean, I always study a lot, and I don't know how to get free time.

When I'm studying I always think to stop with the books and grab a brush, but I know that I shouldn't. Well, it happens to me when I do some homework, except when I'm doing language work. I love languages! And they are easy to me. I think I express myself correctly, I know how to write texts, I know the grammar... And all stuff like that. I just like it. I'm keen on spanish, catalan, french, english (and someday I want to study german and italian [well, I've started but I had to stop because I was studying a lot of languages at the same time and there's no man who can with all that]).

I want to do a lot of things and I try to do them with the time. Now, I want to calm me and fix hours to study, and I'll see if I can do it. I hate my caos with the hours, but, well... I'm like this.

What do I do in my free time?

I remember that I have always wanted to be sexteen years old to be a voluntear. When I was a child I said a lot of times that, someday, I would do some lovely things to poor, old and young people... And that's what I do now, or I try it.

When Dali's school call me (well, call us, because I do it with Pau Galiana) I go to read some kids,  in the afternoon. They are on third of Primaria, and they are always happy, with loads of energy and asking questions. It makes me feel so much better, at the end of the day. Children will always be wonderful...

I'm on the Figueres Almshous, as a voluntear. I remember the first day, because I thought different things. I was cheerful to see them, but at the same time I felt bad, because they are very old people, and I know they can feel lonely. Old people were smiling all the time, and they wanted to talk with my classmates and me, and it made me wonder what does they do every day. I'm sure that not everyday come teenagers to the almshouse, so they have to enjoy youthfulness.

We have to help people, because we all need somebody by our side. I really love this hours, because they make me really happy.

What do I do to prepare the blogs?

When I'm going to write some posts, I do different things.

First of all, I can write depending of the time: if I really want to write (or if I need to do it) or if I have to do it (because I wrote what days I must blogging).

Then, I can do another two things too; I choose between writing of what I want (or must, again), or I look at the document that I wrote of differents themes. This document has a lot of ideas of blogs, and I have written some of them (that you can read in this blog if you want).

Then, I start writing: I think how I'm going to say it, and then I do it. (Excuse me, but I'm seeing that I have wrote a lot of "I" here... And it makes me laugh, because there's no other word to talk about me as a subject). 

When I finish with the text, I read it again, and I go to the Translator of Google to check if I did any orthographic mistake. Then I look for a photo; it depends of if the text needs it or not.

And that's all! 

Paint or Pain?

I always think about my art. I wonder if I'll can do what I want to do, because I see amazing paintings, the perfect color harmony, these wonderful shapes, the feelings... And I compare myself with incredible painters. I will improve, I know, like all art lovers that paint, draw or any other technique, but I despair sometimes thinking about it.

It's a big fear, because I'm afraid of not to get exactly what I want. When I paint I have an image in my head, and if I can't put it on the paper, I start to think that I can't draw, and I'll never get my live dreams. I know, it can sound stupid, but I really feel like this.

I've been a little sad ago few days, or maybe weeks, because I'm too exigent and I hardly ever get what I want. It's so hard, it needs time (like Scorpions say in a song), and I'm so young, but I can't think like a teenager. I think as an adult in a lot of aspects, and that's bad too, because I know that I must enjoy the moment and relax. But I can't. I needed to write today, and do this one made me feel better. I think.